A Little Light at the Window

If you’ve read any of my previous blogs you might have seen that I wrote about putting a bird feeder in front of my window to help with my nerves. That bird feeder has sprouted into 5 and one brick feeder.  We get the regular blue jays and cardinals but with the change of weather, we get to see unusual birds and stay awed in their colors and beauty.

These last couple of weeks have been busy for us but I still have to work so the birds are the one truly constant enjoyment that I have. As of. this morning, we have a baby red bellied woodpecker, a baby Carolina wren, a baby cardinal and also a baby titmouse. How do I know what these birds are? The woodpecker was easy as we had been watching the male and female for a while and then the bald looking baby showed up. The Cardinals we have year round as we do the titmice, but the Carolina wren we had to look up. These are just the babies that we have and we’ve been watching all kinds of other birds arrive.

I keep my camera beside my keyboard to try and get a picture of the babies but the woodpecker hasn’t figured out how to land on the feeder yet and seems to scare itself. We have one of the baby wren getting fed but not any of the others, they’re just too quick for me.

Simple, I know, but it’s relaxing and also beautiful to watch. The bright red of the male cardinal feeding on the white church feeder that I have, stunning. I’ve introduced my granddaughter to a whole new world, albeit from our window. She loves to watch as they feed and interact and she is my official squirrel police, armed with a water filled squirt gun.

In my world filled with chaos and negativity, there is still a bit of love and light shown to me each day that I look out my window at these amazing creatures. Sometimes, I feel as though they are looking back through the window at me and I truly hope that’s the case.

Smells

I awoke last night at 1 am to a very strong smell of coffee. Thinking it was time to get up, I reached for my phone to turn off the alarm and that’s when I could see the real time. Thinking that the coffee pot was on the fritz due to a power outage last week, I pulled the covers back over me and tried to go back to sleep.

Every half hour or so, my eyes would open with a feeling again of the coffee needing my attention. No smell of smoke, no fear in my mind but just the strong smell in my room. I did set the coffee to start for the next morning as I normally do but this has never happened before. Was I being told that I just needed to get up, what was going on?

Whether it was just being very tired or laziness, I decided each time not to get out of bed and to try and push through in order to get some sleep. Finally, 5 am came around, I normally get up at 5:30 am so I gave in and got up. Keeping to my morning ritual, I walked out of the restroom again to smell the coffee. By this time I truly thought that the coffee pot would have hit it’s two-hour timer and turned itself off.

Turning the light on in the kitchen, I hear the familiar drip and hiss sound of the coffee pot, it was just starting to brew! There wasn’t yet the strong smell of coffee in the room as it was in my bedroom last night. This was beyond strange because I truly expected to see a full pot of cold coffee waiting for me to heat back up this morning.

Sometimes I can sit in my bedroom and smell smoke, like a cigarette. No one in my house smokes and a smoker hasn’t lived here since my father who passed in 1976. So it’s strange how smells can take over a moment and well, a night if I’m counting the hours of last night. But why coffee and why so strong that it wakes me up? Was I supposed to get up and just didn’t do it? I’m worried to find what I missed from not heeding its warning.

Nothing seems to be out of the ordinary and I actually fell asleep in the living room for 15 minutes after setting my fresh cup of coffee down. Thank goodness I didn’t sleep for longer or I would have been late for work. However, I do wish I had the day off, my desk sits beside my bed at the moment and the covers look so inviting. But the window is open and the sun is rising. Birds are chirping and happy that we filled the feeder. It’s so chipper outside I’m wondering when Mary Poppins is going to fly by! Seriously, it’s a beautiful morning and I’m having to watch it from my window, albeit better than not watching it so I am thankful. Thankful yet tired today, hopefully, that will pass just as the strong smell of coffee did and the day will continue to be beautiful.